#had this half written all year

[1wn8ure]

someday i will finish my dsmp royal au and share it with the 3 people still involved in the dsmp fandom (/j). someday...

[lunaetis]

[ suddenly getting emotional over the fact that i used to be so anxious and insecure about writing eden ( or calling the trailblazer eden instead of the default name stelle ) or how ppl might view her given how i had a certain personality developed for her even before the game was released. and looking at her now, having forged such wonderful dynamics and bonds with so many ppl and growing into her own self beyond what i, as a mun, could ever envisioned. i'm just so so grateful to those who had stuck by me since i debut this menacing raccoon and help forge her core and identity to become who she is today. ]

[hopecomesbacktolife]

thinking of rereading the entirety of HoME again. for my health

[donttouchtheneednoggle]

realising you're trans is like realising you've been driving in a clown car all your life and infinite clowns of misery and uncomfortableness and dysphoria have been squished into what looks like a completely normal car and once they start coming out they don't stop

[soobvape]

heol

[lexalovesbooks]

That cw class was so interesting, it was the advanced class which I thought would mean better writing than the intro one I’d taken a year or so ago, which was overall true, but also. It was like nearly every single person in that class had decided that they were serious writers who didn’t write about juvenile topics, they only wrote about big complicated things and emotions, which meant that probably seventy-five percent of the stories I read that semester were about a character dealing with either the death, near-death experience, or approaching death of someone they cared for.

[acaesic]

i dont think im capable of being as enthralled with anything else in the world as i am with idkhow. i think this is just who i am now. forever

[gingerbreadmonsters]

[melting into goo]

[designernishiki]

I think one of the things that bothers me the most about mine being killed off at the end of y3 is like… you get little tiny looks here and there into his mind and at who he is, but overall because his intentions are so mysterious most of the game, he seems like a relatively 2-dimensional villain pretty much up until the very end when he monologues and reveals his worldview, background, relationship with daigo, etc. and then right after they establish him as being complex and interesting by revealing all that info AND having him take kiryu’s hand and start changing his mindset for the better– they kill him off. so it kinda feels like truly introducing a character right at the end and then getting rid of him like thirty seconds later just Destroying all the potential they just gave him. like. he was just at the start of his development basically and it just sucks to not be able to see that through and see what he could’ve become.

as much as I do totally understand the dilemma brought on by daigo waking up and the crushing guilt that’d immediately bring mine, and I totally agree that he’d absolutely TRY to dramatically kill himself in an act of self-sacrifice over it, I don’t think they particularly should’ve let him– for the sake of his potential as a recurring character, but moreover because we’ve already been through this before with nishiki and ending this incident with the same result despite kiryu actually doing things right this time and daigo showing immediate care and concern for mine upon waking up (unlike kiryu with nishiki, who got ignored and basically forgotten). I think it would’ve been more powerful and interesting and applicable to kiryu’s development in the long run to have had mine saved, both literally/physically and emotionally in the sense that he actually accepts, even if he doesn’t believe he’s worthy of it, that people truly care about him and there isn’t only evil in the world and that if he can’t live for himself he can live for the sake of those he loves. he’s been self-centered for so long and kiryu calls him out on it, so he considers that maybe, for once, he should put his fate and trust into the hands of others rather than believing himself to have the clearest judgement on what he deserves or how he should repent. and that’d mean something to kiryu, who’s at that point already grappling with a similar dilemma when it comes to stubbornly sacrificing himself for others despite those who love him telling him it’s not always necessary and that he can accept help. it’so mean something to have kiryu see that self sacrifice isn’t the only option, and even in the worst of situations a person’s life can be saved through compassion.

[darkandstormydolls]

I’ve kind of lost my writing mojo over the summer (I have still been thinking about my characters and considering things of course but I couldn’t seem to get anything written down), but this evening I was feeling like “eh I could write” and then say down for over an hour and wrote a good half (probably more honestly) pf a scene that has been languishing as a five word idea in my extremely rough outline for literally months

Thank you, writing fairies, for smiling upon me today

[aikuse]

is it just me or does anyone else just not understand why hotd is diverging from the book

[spearxwind]

Not sure if you have been asked before but are you going to continue your webcomic or is it on indefinite hiatus?

At the moment indefinite hiatus for sure. I've kinda lost interest in drawing the comic since I was not fully happy with how I wrote the story (it was patched together very poorly and I should have spent more time ironing out some mistakes) and it also took up a LOT of my free time (of which I had plenty due to having really bad mental health and very little social life)

Currently I dont think I could upkeep a comic. I thought about it, but I don't want to atm.

I really love all my characters dearly though, for extinction, and I think what I have been drawing really has not done them justice in the least and it pains me a lot, so in the future god be willing I would love to actually just reboot the whole thing with a different, and hopefully far better story

[thevioletcaptain]

someday soon i'm going to post several 10k+ deancas fics on ao3 all at once because i'm deranged and didn't want to start posting any of them until they were complete, but that also means that they'll probably all be done at the same time. or maybe i should stagger them over a week or something. we shall see. anyway, lotta words incoming.

[calamitys-child]

Unstoppable force (I wanna make a ttrpg campaign I wanna make it so bad it would be so cool) vs immovable object (any time I see a rulebook or a form of literally any kind it makes me hiss and spit and have a furious panic attack and never touch it ever again)

[zenmai--jikake--no--komoriuta]

MiqoMarch'24, Day #16: - twilight -

Every now and then when he watches the sun slowly sink beyond horizon, he catches glimpses of a far-flung memory. A past life where he is not D'nyr, but Polydeuces, where he is whole and happy and surrounded by many friends… He is taller too (though not by much; he still appears shorter than most of his colleagues!), with slightly longer and more tousled hair, his fringe pinned back on one side by a silver circlet-- it seems he is forever destined to have one eye left beset by hair-- and when the light hits, his face appears almost softer without his signature X-shaped scar. Part of the Convocation of Fourteen, his title was Theidos* the Recordkeeper and his role was to maintain and safeguard mankind's accumulated wisdom, an accolade which paired well with his main vocation as the Chief Archivist of Anamnesis Anyder. During the early stages of the Final Days, he sought assistance from colleagues like The Watcher (as well as from Hythlodaeus, Chief of the Bureau of the Architect) to develop a mobile version of Anamnesis which could be used as a fortress and sanctuary both, one that could protect the treasures and knowledge of the current age and carry them on safely into the future; a concept he dubbed "Alexander". As time grew short he would entrust his position to his senior-most advisor and step down in order to fully pursue these plans, however the advent of Zodiark and the schism that ensued upon its summoning threw a spanner in the works, and not just for the loss of a friend and collaborator-- although not a part of it, he was of course well aware of Venat's group due to his ties to Anamnesis Anyder, and in agreement with their views he cast aside his title of Theidos. In response to this, his Convocation-related belongings were seized with the drafts along with them and, left powerless in the wake of cataclysm, he fled… (These designs were later repurposed by the Ascians for their own ends in ushering in the Rejoining, and fragments would find their way to others through mysterious means, inspiring the actualisation of Alexander and everything that entailed!)

*from the Greek thymámai (to memorize) + eîdos (form); my WoL's lore has no Azem as I drafted this all at the time of base-ShB expac release when we knew close to nothing about the Ancients, and I haven't got an interest in retconning it to fit :')

(yes there is a Castor out there somewhere but he'll have to be on a free day bc none of the upcoming prompts make sense to introduce him on)